mific: (Kaos - Zeus)
([personal profile] mific posting in [community profile] fanart_recs Jun. 13th, 2025 06:18 pm)
Fandom: Kaos
Characters/Pairing/Other Subject: Prometheus
Content Notes/Warnings: none
Medium: digital art
Artist on DW/LJ: n/a
Artist Website/Gallery: dxcstrange-stuff on tumblr
Why this piece is awesome: dxcstrange-stuff really likes Prometheus and has drawn him several times. I like this one especially, where he's giving humanity the gift of fire. Nice movement in the swirling lines, and lighting from the fire.
Link: Prometheus
petra: A cartoon penguin standing in dandelions thinking, "Dandelion break." (Bloom County - Dandelion Break)
([personal profile] petra Jun. 12th, 2025 08:35 pm)
After illegally ordering the National Guard and the Marines to violently end protests in California, 47 went to the theatre to see Les Misérables.

Can we please fire the people scripting this season of the United States of America? Some of these choices are so asinine I think they're consulting genAI for their scripts, and no one is editing them.

Oh, wait, that's what the politicians are doing to make fucking laws.

I'm going to go read amnesia fic now and think, "I wish that were me."
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([personal profile] settiai Jun. 12th, 2025 06:32 pm)
Welp. This is certainly a day. The fire alarm went off again this afternoon. And this time? It was an actual fire. 🙃

They managed to get it put out fairly quickly at least, and from the time the fire alarm went off to the fire trucks arriving was, like, less than two minutes. So good on them for a great response time.

Long story short, the laundry room that the hotel staff uses to wash sheets, towels, etc. caught on fire. I'm guessing it was one of the industrial dryers in there based on what I saw. There's currently a hole in the wall leading into the laundry room, firemen still running around, and a shit ton of smoke in the hallways, but they've let everyone back inside. And my suite is about as far as you can get from where the fire was, so there's at least no smoke in here as long as I keep the door shut.

Garrus is already back to normal, but Keyleth has hidden herself under the bed and probably won't be coming back out for at least a few hours. Minimum.

June is, uh, certainly shaping up to be a month. That's for sure.
Make an ass out of u and me (1431 words) by Petra
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker, Depa Billaba/Obi-Wan Kenobi/Shaak Ti/Quinlan Vos, Aayla Secura & Anakin Skywalker
Characters: Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Aayla Secura, Quinlan Vos, Shaak Ti, Depa Billaba
Additional Tags: A+ Jedi Pedagogy, Polyamory, POV Outsider
Summary:

Anakin has the most boringly perfect master in the entire Jedi Order. Some masters go on interesting missions; Obi-Wan does diplomatic missions where he sits at a table and says, "Hm, well…" a lot till he gets his way. Some masters have showy, dangerous lightsaber styles; Obi-Wan does Soresu, which is as purely defensive as anything anyone has ever devised. Some masters are fully-rounded people who drink and laugh and dance; Obi-Wan stays in with his three best friends and talks about philosophy all night, because he is a perfect Jedi, and so are they.

I learned a few days ago that the Latin American Games Showcase is happening this week. This is very relevant to my interests, so I downloaded some demos. Too many demos, really, so I'm going to break my thoughts into two posts.

⭐ I want to play this.
❓ Maybe someday if it's on sale or if issues are fixed by release.
🚫 Not for me.

⚒️ Unreleased/early access.


⭐⚒️ Oscuro: Blossom's Glow (puzzle platformer - Hongoneon, Costa Rica )

⭐⚒️ PancitoMerge (Suika-like puzzle - Fáyer, Mexico )

I Did Not Buy This Ticket (surreal horror visual novel - Tiago Rech, Brazil )

Adore (creature-collecting ARPG - Cadabra Games, Brazil )

❓⚒️ Beacon of Neyda - Ghost Creative Studio, Uruguay )

🚫 The End is Nahual (variety puzzles - Third World Productions, Mexico )

🚫 Alexandria IV (sci-fi visual novel - J.M. Beraldo, Brazil )

🚫 Dreamcore ('liminal space' walking sim - Montraluz, Argentina )
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([personal profile] pauraque Jun. 10th, 2025 01:13 pm)
Note: Stronach came out as trans after this book was published, so earlier reviews may misgender her, as does the cover bio.

In this first book of a planned fantasy trilogy (of which two books have so far been released), we're introduced to the city of Hainak, a seaport that's just been through a political revolution, as well as an alchemical-biological magitech revolution. Our main character is Yat, a naive cop who wants to be a hero, but instead she's just been demoted for being queer. As her life crumbles into a haze of drugs and disillusionment, she stumbles into the doings of a secret faction, gets murdered, and finds herself resurrected with new powers that allow her to manipulate life force with her mind, all of which gives her a very different perspective on what a hero is and what she actually wants to fight for.

So... I really wanted to like this. I did enjoy the Māori-inspired worldbuilding and the author's vivid visual imagination, filling the city with a profusion of bizarre wonders as well as a strong sense of place. I also liked a lot of the characters and cared what happened to them. But ultimately I found the book didn't have enough structure to hold together.

It's being marketed as akin to Tamsyn Muir's Locked Tomb series, and I think that comparison pinpoints the problem. Many aspects of the book do seem similar—there's magic with body horror, fantasy with sci-fi, loads of queerness... as well as byzantine political intrigue, misdirections about characters' identities, conversations that don't specify what's being discussed, and long monologues from unidentified speakers. But the reason all the confusing stuff works when Muir does it is that she does eventually provide enough information for you to fit all the pieces together, and on re-reading you discover that all the things that initially confused you actually make complete sense and Muir had a plan all along. And maybe Stronach also has a plan in her head, but if so it didn't make it onto the page. The book ends in a muddle of events that seem superficially dramatic but don't actually explain that much or draw the needed connections between the disparate plot elements.

The part of the book that's presented the most clearly is Yat's journey of realizing that the police only protect the powerful and serve the status quo, so if she wants to be a hero to the downtrodden then being a cop isn't the way to do it. Which would be a perfectly reasonable character arc, except that Yat's backstory is that she was an orphan living on the streets and she saw firsthand on a daily basis what cops are like, so why is her story about her "realizing" something she already knows? I guess she's supposed to be in deep denial, but it just didn't make any sense to me.

Some reviews I read had also led me to believe that the book has a lot more pirate content than it actually does. I mean, it does have pirates! But I felt cheated that we didn't spend more time with them, both because pirates are awesome and because the backstory of these specific pirates was super intriguing but criminally underexplained. I often felt like the book was barely intersecting the outskirts of a way more interesting story centered on the pirate captain and her crew, and wondered why they weren't the main characters.

Anyway, I think there was a lot of potential here but it didn't cohere enough for me to want to continue with the series. Too bad.
settiai: (Ahsoka -- xaetel)
([personal profile] settiai Jun. 9th, 2025 06:26 pm)
I know it's a long shot considering Amazon is Amazon, but would anyone be interested in buying an Echo Show (2nd Gen) 10" in black charcoal? Or know anyone who might want one?

It's used, but it still works perfectly fine. It's been in my storage unit in the hope I'd be in a position to use it again, as it was really useful for cooking purposes (among other things) when I was living in an apartment with a full-sized kitchen, but it's become increasingly clear that I'm not moving out of the hotel anytime soon so I really have no need for it.

I'd be willing to accept any reasonable offer. There's no listings on Amazon since it's an older model, but there are some available on eBay for comparison. I could have it in the mail either this weekend or early next week at the latest.

For payment, I have CashApp ($Settiai), PayPal, Venmo, or Zelle (nancy.lynn.foster@gmail.com).

If you know anyone who might be interested, please point them my way. I'm still around $100 shy of being able to cover all of my upcoming bills, and it would help a lot if I could find someone interested in taking this off my hands.
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([personal profile] azriona Jun. 9th, 2025 08:30 am)
Yesterday was too rainy for the pool (and also I think 10yo just needed a day off), so we went to the movies. And while I would have been totally happy to skip it, we ended up seeing the new Lilo & Stitch. 

(For the record: I already picked the brain of someone who'd seen the movie, told them to absolutely spoil me on anything relevant, so I knew that the ending was vastly different from the original. I figured given the subject matter, and what I'd already heard, I wanted to go with eyes wide open.)

And while I still think the original animated version is superior, I'm glad I went... but mostly in the same vein as being glad I lived in Saudi Arabia so I can talk about what it's like to experience living in that country. Because there's a whole lot of nuance involved in what makes the new version of the movie so disturbing, as well as some issues I haven't even seen raised that bother me, too.

Spoilers, so many spoilers, under this cut. )


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([personal profile] petra Jun. 8th, 2025 07:33 pm)
My brain reward cycle is fucked, and the longer I think about it, the more I recognize that it's always been this way.

Case in point: I performed recently after preparing for 5 months.

My mother said, "It went well! That must feel good."

Me: "..."

It didn't. It never really does, not unless someone else gives me external validation.

Whenever I do something hard, my brain's response is, "Well, I did it, so how hard could it have been?"

This applies to excelling academically (which I have done frequently), excelling at my job (which I have done on occasion), every type of performance I've ever undertaken (and there have been a lot), every form of art/craft I've ever done (writing, knitting, crocheting, etc.), and helping friends.

Mostly I just feel relief that it's over, and my brain isn't going to give me the constant round of "You should work on [thing]!" anymore. Nah, the shoulds will switch to something else, but at least it'll be new at first.
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[community profile] fkficfest '25 has concluded! We had lovely, diverse stories, and lovely, kind interactions, all around. Forever Knight fandom has always been such a jumble of approaches, with its mishmash of genres and themes attracting wildly dissimilar approaches and interpretations. It's touching and heartening that we can play together at all, much less this successfully. Thank you.

Some years, I feel that being the game's moderator should block me from making story recommendations, and I hold my peace. This year, I feel that it's okay to go ahead and point out a few stories that happened to offer particularly distinct elements to me, personally, subjectively, as a reader and not moderator.

  • "A Duty to Serve" by [archiveofourown.org profile] Calliope24 (G, gen, ~2K words): Set during the tumult of "A More Permanent Hell," a uniformed Tracy tries to serve while her father orders her off the streets, and Stonetree steps in. I found the efforts of all the characters to endure and serve the common good during this civilizational collapse powerful, and Stonetree's measured optimism -- not just about the ultimate end, but faith in people -- invigorating. I also admire the imagination and depiction of this canon bubble; of course the third-season characters lived second-season, and of course Stonetree knew Commissioner Vetter.

  • "Unpacking" by [archiveofourown.org profile] SwitchbladeEyes (T, gen, ~11K words): Set immediately after "Sons of Belial," Nick's reaction to the demon incident brings all of Natalie's undealt-with feelings about Richard's death in "I Will Repay" roaring to the surface. I found this story's cadence, tone, and voice so resonantly third-season that it felt -- for better and for worse, for familiarity and for discomfort -- like it could indeed have been the next canonical episode after "Sons of Belial," if such continuity had been a thing in those days, and also that it could then have broken third-season's fall and climbed back up onto a more promising path by dealing with pain and not only piling it up.

  • "Daylight" by [archiveofourown.org profile] Nicholas_Lucien (T, gen, ~2K words): This songfic goes around and around, like the verses of a song with a refrain, in a way that made my brain react to it more like poetry than prose. It makes an interesting choice, to call Nick/Nicolas/Nicholas by those different names as it shifts through Nick's, Janette's, and Lacroix's perspectives regardless of the historical era, creating prism-like views on each situation. The reader may interpret the cyclical structure to indicate that Nick will never win. I choose to interpret it, for myself, instead to indicate that Nick will never stop striving.


Separately, the story that I contributed myself is "Reconcilable Differences" (T, gen, ~5K words). Thank you, [personal profile] batdina, for beta-reading! Set early in the long hiatus between the first and second seasons, it pokes at the trope of Natalie treating a badly injured Nick by dosing him with the blood that she otherwise insists is the barrier to all his hopes. Both Nick and Natalie, of course, want Nick to both live and become human, but when something happens to make Nick believe that he can have only one or the other, he and Natalie are not necessarily in harmony on which and why and how. The story addresses the game prompt "I’m going to tell you something you don’t want to hear;" I think that it goes both ways between them. I definitely found it easier to put Nick and Natalie into this mess than to get them out again, but I like to think that I did so in the end.

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([personal profile] azriona Jun. 8th, 2025 12:59 pm)
Swim season has begun in earnest, and 10yo has commenced living at the pool. Today might be the first day we don't go but that's only because it's raining, and also he and his friend J spent a total of nine consecutive hours at the pool yesterday, between time trials and then just sticking around to goof off. 

As far as I can tell, he did pretty well with time trials; I did not check on his times for freestyle or backstroke, and I think he might have DQ'ed the backstroke, though that might have been for another child. He certainly didn't swim the fastest in his heat for either. But what I really want to talk about is his breaststroke and butterfly.

So here's the thing: 10yo has never, in the history of his swimming career (and this is his third season), swum a legal time in either of those strokes. Meaning, he has DQ'ed in every heat, because he screws up some aspect of the stroke and therefore his time is rendered invalid. And going into yesterday's time trials, we didn't expect much different, because he says they weren't focused on those strokes in practice. Which fine, whatever, he swims them anyway in time trials because it's low pressure and you never know.

Free is always first; he swims and does fine. Back is next; he's the slowest in his heat (even compared to J, who is famed for being slow but totally cooked, as the kids say.)

Then come breast. So I'm pretty sure 10yo DQ'ed early on, the stroke-and-turn judge was writing on their papers like mad. Whatever; like I said, we hadn't really expected a legal time anyway. But 10yo was also uber slow. Like, 45 seconds behind the next slowest kid, so there was a good long time where it was only him swimming in the heat. And for some reason, he decided that he wasn't going to put his head under water for the stroke. Which is fine, for breaststroke, that won't get you DQ'ed (or so the stroke-and-turn judge near me said when I commented on it). Definitely  not gonna improve your time, but whatever.

So here's the thing when you have kids swimming a heat, and one kid is vastly slower than the others. When it's just that kid swimming, the entire pool starts cheering for them--other team included, usually. Because it's obvious they're trying their hardest and they're not contenders and they're all kids and it's supposed to be friendly fun, right? You start yelling for them and cheering their name if you know it, and you scream like crazy when they're done. Happens every time. 

And a time trial is your team only, because it's just to get official times so you can properly seed your swimmers during competition, and 10yo is extremely likable and everyone knows him. 

So he has half a lap left, and he's just chugging along, head above the water... and the whole pool starts yelling and cheering and whooping and shouting "YOU CAN DO IT, GO GO GO, KEEP SWIMMING, YOU'RE SO CLOSE, YAY 10YO!!!!"

And 10yo... head above the water, able to hear every word... just gets this big ol' grin on his face, looking around at everyone yelling his name... and slows down.

Because let's face it... the whole pool is chanting his name, and he knows perfectly well he's not going to win, and also probably that he's DQ'ed like insanity (the stroke & turn judge is still writing down mistakes) and if he swims faster, they still stop cheering. Who wouldn't slow down? "Oh, yeah. You all love me. Keep it coming."

Anyway, it was the funniest heat of the whole morning.  

So fast forward about twenty minutes, and it's the butterfly. Now, butterfly is hard, everyone DQs on the regular, I don't know who invented this stroke but clearly they're either a masochist or a sadist or both. 10yo wanders over to me and says, holding half a chocolate donut and still chewing a bite, "I'm done right?"

Me: Uh, no, I signed you up for all four strokes, I told you that.
Him: What? Why? When?
Me: Yes, because you always do all four strokes during time trials, and I told you this multiple times all week.
Him: Do I have to?
Me: Yep.

I thought he might scratch--the kids can do that, if they want, though they'll get a brief lecture/rousing call to action from the coach who won't guilt them into it past that--but nope, I saw him take his place on the line a little while later. At his age, fly is still 25 meters (like I said, it's a hard stroke), so maybe he figured the suffering would be brief.

Anyway, he dives in and starts. His dives are definitely better; he gets a good ways down the lane before he breaks the surface. And his fly looked really good. He wasn't the fastest, but he wasn't the slowest. And I'm actually doing a job here, I'm one of the timers in a different lane so I'm paying attention to the kid in my lane in between glancing over at 10yo, who is on the far end of the six lanes. And I finish timing him (because he's fast) before focusing squarely on my kid.

And the stroke and turn judge never raised their hand, which is how they indicate a kid's been DQ'ed.

And the stroke and turn judge never raised their hand.

And the stroke and turn judge never raised their hand.

Now, I'm only dimly aware of the judge, I'm just cheering for 10yo, who is for once not last, and is still going strong, and gets to the end...

Which is when I turn to another timer and say, "Wait. WAS THAT A LEGAL FLY???"

The general consensus was: Yep, think so!

Even 10yo knew it, though he didn't quite believe it, when he came over to give me the requisite hug after. (Because he's dripping wet and cold, see, and I'm dry and it's hot.)

So after the meet is done, I wandered over to the stats table, and asked one of the other parents there who was doing table work. 

And sure enough... legal. fly. Not the fastest, but 100% legal.

I went over and found 10yo, who was in a group of his friends, and his jaw dropped. All his buddies started punching him in the arms and he got the biggest, silliest grin on his face, even bigger than the breaststroke grin. It was awesome.

So all in all, a really good day. He might actually get to swim in A meets this summer, which is kinda cool, too. (Cause even though he's not the fastest, kids can only swim two strokes in a meet, so at that point, he might be the only option with a legal time.) Hopefully this means he's got it now, and it wasn't just a fluke. (But I bet the coach has him go over it again a few times during the week, just to cement it!)

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([personal profile] settiai Jun. 8th, 2025 12:14 pm)
Quiet Moments (1825 words) by Settiai
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Solas/Male Trevelyan (Dragon Age), background Cullen Rutherford/Male Trevelyan
Characters: Male Trevelyan (Dragon Age), Solas (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Arlathan Exchange (Dragon Age), Formerly Tranquil Inquisitor (Dragon Age), Hurt/Comfort, Lyrium Addiction, Lyrium Withdrawal, One Shot, Queerplatonic Relationships, Slice of Life, Trans Inquisitor (Dragon Age), Trans Male Inquisitor (Dragon Age)
Summary: Connor Trevelyan hadn't expected anyone to join him on the battlements in the middle of the night.
settiai: (Fenris -- offensive)
([personal profile] settiai Jun. 8th, 2025 12:12 pm)
A Study in Worth (1428 words) by Settiai
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Dragon Age II, Dragon Age - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Anders/Fenris (Dragon Age)
Characters: Anders (Dragon Age), Fenris (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Arlathan Exchange (Dragon Age), Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Established Relationship, Mental Health Issues, One Shot, Post-Dragon Age II, Pre-Dragon Age: Inquisition
Summary: It was blatantly obvious that Anders was spiraling again.
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([personal profile] settiai Jun. 8th, 2025 12:30 am)
I'm still not feeling particularly great, but my brain has at least stopped spiraling quite as badly. So that's something at least. I'm still definitely worried about covering upcoming bills, but it doesn't feel as completely impossible as it did when I made my last post.

If you reached out, thank you very much, and I want you to know that it really did help a lot. 💕

I'm not quite at a point brain-wise where I think that I can send out replies to people without being completely overwhelmed, and - while I'm not going to disable comments on this post like I did earlier - I probably won't be replying to any of them at least for the time being. I'm at a point where human interaction is definitely difficult right now, especially since I need to save up any spoons I can for work on Monday as I'm in the office that day.

After I made my post this afternoon, I got offline for several hours. I forced myself to clean the hotel room before buzzing my hair, taking a shower, bleaching my roots, and putting some dye in my hair to re-up the orange. Honestly, it wasn't much in the grand scheme of things, but it at least helped some.

And then I tried to go to bed early, although that clearly didn't work out very well considering it's a little after midnight and I've given up and am back on the computer. As is often the case when I go to bed too early, my body decided it was intended to be a nap rather than proper sleep, so I'm wide awake again and probably will remain so until at least 3am now.

Still, my spoons continue to be very much in the negative, but I at least feel more like a human being than I did earlier. One step at a time, I suppose?
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